Saturday, January 10, 2009

Slacker blogger

I am sorry blogging community, I have been negligent lately. But the blogging spirit hasn't moved me lately. I have plenty of things that I want to write about and that I want to share, but I don't have the motivation or maybe the will to sit down and write about it. I've been missing Kyle a lot lately. I like to visit the blog sometimes just so I can look at the picture of him kissing me in Karen's garden. I like to pretend, I am in the picture right at that moment and I can feel his arms strong around my waist, loving and secure, and his soft lips pressing up against my cheek as his beautiful luscious hair tickles my face. If only he were here already. If only I could close my eyes and when I opened them he would be standing miraculously in front of me. But he isn't here, and the truth is, I still don't know when I can throw my arms around his neck in the tightest hug next to a choke hold there is. And the not knowing is driving me crazy and throwing my spirits into a downward spiral. Maybe I am feeling this way because I just watched "Juno" which could possibly be described as a romantic comedy which always make me miss Kyle. Maybe tomorrow when I wake up I will feel close to normal again and possibly even happy. I hope so. I am tired of this hole in my heart that this distance has caused, and I am tired of the pillow I hug in place of Kyle at night. Come home to me soon my darling. And to my bloggy readers, I will try and be a better blogger, but I'm not making any promises.

5 comments:

Aunt Julie said...

Hope you get out of your Bloggy Blues soon. When will you and Kyle be back together again?

Stephanie said...

Ohh it makes my heart ache to read this. For you and for me. I wish I could tell you it gets easier and in some ways it does...BUT we know it won't be forever. And in between the sadness, the memory of happy moments keep us going, because my friend, there will be more and that is the happiest thing of all :)

Hope to hear from you soon...and I can promise this, the blues come and go, you will feel happier some days than others. It's only natural!

Anonymous said...

V,

You have nothing to apologize for. It's been three days. If it was two weeks and you had nothing else going on, then you might have to apologize for something.

(Ha, I just went two months without posting on any of my blogs...)

<3 and I hope Kyle will come soon,
Ashton

Anonymous said...

Blogger blues're common unfortunately:-( Hope you evolve out of soon...

Tiff said...

I just don't have a lot of time to blog now a days...so taking time off from blogging is fine...I only write in my once a week..if even that sometimes...four kids and running a house..takes a lot of time..lol...so no worries on the blog blues...just write when you feel it! Hope you and your man are back together soon.. :)