Saturday, January 10, 2009
I am sorry blogging community, I have been negligent lately. But the blogging spirit hasn't moved me lately. I have plenty of things that I want to write about and that I want to share, but I don't have the motivation or maybe the will to sit down and write about it. I've been missing Kyle a lot lately. I like to visit the blog sometimes just so I can look at the picture of him kissing me in Karen's garden. I like to pretend, I am in the picture right at that moment and I can feel his arms strong around my waist, loving and secure, and his soft lips pressing up against my cheek as his beautiful luscious hair tickles my face. If only he were here already. If only I could close my eyes and when I opened them he would be standing miraculously in front of me. But he isn't here, and the truth is, I still don't know when I can throw my arms around his neck in the tightest hug next to a choke hold there is. And the not knowing is driving me crazy and throwing my spirits into a downward spiral. Maybe I am feeling this way because I just watched "Juno" which could possibly be described as a romantic comedy which always make me miss Kyle. Maybe tomorrow when I wake up I will feel close to normal again and possibly even happy. I hope so. I am tired of this hole in my heart that this distance has caused, and I am tired of the pillow I hug in place of Kyle at night. Come home to me soon my darling. And to my bloggy readers, I will try and be a better blogger, but I'm not making any promises.
Posted by Vanessa Rogers at 5:27 AM