Tuesday, January 11, 2011

It's gone by too quickly

We leave for Korea on Sunday.  How could it have been a month already.  It has literally flown by.  I felt as if we have been riding the wings of a soaring pegasus touching down only for sleep.  I can't describe how wonderful it has been catching up with loved ones.  Some of whom we hadn't seen for a year, while others as long as ten years.  When did time get so emboldened as to speed past it's allotted speed limit.  When did it join Nascar and blaze by so quickly that a fast shuttered camera can only catch a blur.

On one hand, there are days when I can't wait for the day to spin past me in a whir so blurred that it will only be remembered as spinning funnel within my mind. But when a year has gone by or ten and I could have sworn I only just started high school yesterday, I start to wonder what kind of magic time machine life is?  How did I get here?  How is it that so much has happened in my life?  I was there.  I loved every minute of it.  Well... let's be honest, not every minute.  But definitely a majority.  I want time to stop.  I want to remember the moments and hold them in my heart and keep them still. But in the same thought, I want it to keep chugging.  I want to see where the next funnel we are engulfed into, spits us out next. Where are Kyle and Vanessa now?

How does one keep time from moving and yet continue to explore and live? How can I stay in my twenties, be creative and spunky and yet be a grandmother?  How can I keep the older generation, my parents, my grandmother, my aunts and uncles from aging and passing on, while still moving through time?  What do I even want here?  I want everything to stay the same, and yet change at the same time.

The bottom line is I'm happy.  Life has been so good to us.  But you know what?  It wouldn't matter how many countries we've visited, nor how many adventures we have been on had it not been for people like you.  People who remain in our lives.  People who love us and support us.  It's the people who matter.  It's the love that we are so generously given that really makes me happy.  We go back to Korea in just a few days and I am inwardly conflicted.  We enjoy being abroad, saving money and living adventurously, but we will miss everyone here. So thank you.  Thank you everyone.  Every kind word, every show of support, whether we are home or abroad, thank you. 


Rachael said...

Sorry I missed you guys this time around. I found that present. It's been so long it's all beat up looking.. charlie brown wrapping, for sure. Maybe I will mail it to you in Korea. I bet you'd like to get a package from home over there.

And hey- you are welcome! I think of you often and read every blog post. I don't comment on them all because that would feel stalky, haha... I am jealous that you get to have the adventures I've always wanted. If you go to Bali I may have to hire a hitman, lol. KIDDING!!! It's fabulous, you're fabulous, Kyle's fabulous, and you are both welcome! Love you!

Daisy said...

Your blog always makes me happy!! I'm so glad you have so much adventure and a loving family/network!!!

And it's so inspiring to see people choosing to live abroad - together - and make a difference!!

I'm getting the itch to move again...

Kaitlyn said...

Hi Vanessa! I found your blog on 20SB. My name is Kaitlyn and I am a native Texan as well, currently living in Okinawa, Japan. Your life sounds so interesting and I'm delighted to now follow your blog! :)

Peter and Leslie said...

I like this post. I identify with this line:
How can I stay in my twenties, be creative and spunky and yet be a grandmother?